In My Head

I’m sorry, but the last post wasn’t supposed to be an attack on people who couldn’t make it to my going away dinner/lunch or those who I couldn’t see before I left. I know people are busy and had good reason, so don’t worry about it! I hope to see you when I get back though!

**As a warning, this is a ranting/frustrated/angry post. And I don’t post these often, but I really need to. I might not even sound like Jin.**

I leave to go abroad tomorrow! Yay! I’m beyond excited, and at the same time, I don’t feel like I’m leaving. AND I HAVE SO MUCH STUFF STILL TO DO!!

But what’s interesting is that these past two weeks have actually been so eyeopening as I leave, because it kind of showed me who my TRUE friends were. It also showed me that some people just call you a friend to add you to the list. I also found out how immature people can be (or how too mature I am for my age).

So here is my first rant to person #1 who shall not be named:

Please grow up. Look at your attitude and please stop believing that the world revolves around you. The one time I get to see you because I’m so busy, I’m excited to see you. What do you greet me with? Your typical, “I’m angry at you”, careless attitude. How selfish of you. I like how YOU believe you’re mature, and YOU believe that people around you are idiots. Please check yourself. It’s so difficult because we are in two different places, physically, mentally, and professionally in our lives. I spent this entire summer working my butt off. And the one time I get to see you, you have that same immature attitude from when this always happens. Well you know what, go spend  your time partying with your “friends” and living your life. Does that sound like PROGRESS to you? We’ve known each other for so long. But I guess we’ve just become two incredibly different people now.

Next, rant to person #2:

Thank you for that randomly quick end to our friendship. It really shows how great of a person you are. If you are busy with something else, have fun with that something else. It just sucks that I felt you could be someone I’d have in my life forever. Guess that isn’t the case.

(mini) Rant to person #3:

I guess this thing has more power than I thought it did, to prevent us from seeing each other before I leave. 

Finally, to everyone else in my life:

Thank you so much for being great individuals. I really am blessed to have you in my life. I’m glad to see I that I know how to pick ‘em (not my nostrils btw). I know I’m always super busy, I can be a weirdo at times, and can also be uptight sometimes, so I’m glad you guys can deal with it. But I will truly miss you guys even for just 4 months. I know it’s not a long time, but I miss people when i don’t see them for like only a couple of days. So please randomly post comments, videos, pictures on my facebook so I still feel like I’m there with you. Also, if you want to skype or Oovoo with me, let’s arrange a time.

So yeah, I guess it was like a sandwich post: positive, then negative, then positive. All right, switchign over to my other blog! Follow it: lvbtnc.tumblr.com

While scanning transcripts, I noticed that some high schools give out over a 5.00 GPA!? And straight B’s and C’s apparently translate into a 4.8 GPA. I guess if it makes their students feel better….hahaha

For some reason, the past couple of days have gotten me thinking about who I have become. Yes, change is inevitable, but where do “I” go, after the phase passes. I feel like I’m reverting to my introverted middle school self. I also feel like I’m straying away from what I know is right. For some reason, it’s getting harder to interact with people than it used to. I feel like I’m overthinking or thinking too much (is that the same thing?). Why do I care so much? Why does it matter? I don’t know.

-People who instantaneously judge other people

-People who are intolerant

-People who pressure others to do things

-People who are inconsiderate

-People who take advantage of other people

-People who believe they are “the ish”

-People who are douchebags

-People who are going no where in life

-People who are selfish

I met ONE PERSON the other day who fit this entire mold. I was disgusted.

Here are some unconventional pictures of the order of my travel itinerary, looking at the beauty of the inside of the cities, versus the typical outside of these famous landmarks. Can you guess where I’m going?